A note from someone who is changing

The person I am speaking of, in all honesty, is myself. I used to be somewhat monstrous–throwing temper tantrums well up into my teenage years, disrespecting my parents, and just generally unkind to my family. (But if you asked people at my church at that same time, most would say I was very sweet.) This monstrous activity of mine was due to several heart issues. While none are an excuse to sin, I dealt a lot with anxiety, a little with depression, and a lot with feeling like a failure.

However, in the last 4 years, God has worked on my heart extensively. He has set me free! Over a year ago I used to not stand at all for the idea of kindly respecting and honouring my parents. Now, it is my heart’s desire to honour them just as I would an amazing preacher I greatly admire. It used to be that I blamed all my issues on my family, but God brought to my attention that my issues are my fault. I am responsible for responding instead of reacting. I am to walk in love, like Jesus.

I am still walking things out, like remaining calm when I feel overwhelmed, and loving people when I feel far from it. I am still meditating on the fact that Jesus lives in me, that I am a new creature, and the old has past, and I am free from the penalty and power of sin.

My advice to you, to the ones who are walking with someone trying to change. Be patient, wait for the Lord to act. Your anger, your unrighteous judgement, your put-downs, they do not help the heart that God is, in a sense, “performing surgery on.” When they screw up, make a mistake, or a bad decision, they desperately need you to remind them that they can change. Not by their own strength, but because God is their strength. Because the Creator of the universe lives inside of them. Because He will finish the good work He started in them. They desperately need prayers from you that say, “God, help them. Minister to their heart.” If you have the oppurtunity to speak into someone’s life and have them take it personally, make sure that you are speaking from the Father’s heart. This means your words will be truthful, honest, and loving. Essentially, they’ll line up with the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. As Kris Vallotton says, (if I’m not mistaken) 

“The fruit of the Spirit is the love language of God.”

Alas, just because your words are from the Father’s heart, does not mean it will always inspire a loving reaction. When some people are in transition, they are extra sensitive, and conviction can hit sore spots. But do not worry, as worrying is the worst thing you can do. Pray and thank God for touching their heart, that they would realize who they are in Christ, and Jesus’ healing power would flow through.

When people are changing–they need lots of love. They need people who speak from the Father’s heart because it is only God who can reach their heart.


Romans 6:1-15

​I just love this so much!! So much freedom in this truth!!! 🔥💖

Well then, should we keep on sinning so that God can show us more and more of his wonderful grace? Of course not! Since we have died to sin, how can we continue to live in it? Or have you forgotten that when we were joined with Christ Jesus in baptism, we joined him in his death? For we died and were buried with Christ by baptism. And just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glorious power of the Father, now we also may live new lives. Since we have been united with him in his death, we will also be raised to life as he was. We know that our old sinful selves were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in our lives. We are no longer slaves to sin. For when we died with Christ we were set free from the power of sin. And since we died with Christ, we know we will also live with him. We are sure of this because Christ was raised from the dead, and he will never die again. Death no longer has any power over him. When he died, he died once to break the power of sin. But now that he lives, he lives for the glory of God. So you also should consider yourselves to be dead to the power of sin and alive to God through Christ Jesus. Do not let sin control the way you live; do not give in to sinful desires. Do not let any part of your body become an instrument of evil to serve sin. Instead, give yourselves completely to God, for you were dead, but now you have new life. So use your whole body as an instrument to do what is right for the glory of God. Sin is no longer your master, for you no longer live under the requirements of the law. Instead, you live under the freedom of God’s grace. Well then, since God’s grace has set us free from the law, does that mean we can go on sinning? Of course not!

Romans 6:1‭-‬15 NLT



Lately I have had two encounters with God whilst watching Todd White live on Facebook. Who’d ever thunk it lol.. But in all seriousness, I have come under the strongest conviction I have EVER felt. Yet it is met with more love than I could ever describe, even if given the most poetice words of the universe…and topped with the deepest revelation of His presence that I have ever experienced. 

Who spoke and taught the sun to rise?

Whose lips proclaim the birth of light?

Who sparked the kindling of stars?

And set the fire in our hearts?

Those are lyrics from “One and Only” by Rend Collective. 

The conviction I have come under so strongly from God is about loving people. Truly loving people. Todd White’s testimony is that 12 years ago he got set free from drugs, porn, atheism, etc. He says he hasn’t had a bad day since then. It amazes me how he walks in love. There is not one person he doesn’t love, and that is just how Jesus is. He doesn’t let people’s fear, hatred, dislike, anger, offense or anything stand in the way of loving them. He prays for people, he encourages them, he speaks truth, life, and light, and sees many healed, just like Jesus. 

It so amazes me that this is totally possible for ANY believer. As Todd White says, people aren’t horrible. They just don’t know. They don’t understand who they are. There are people out there in bondage, going to hell, and they need Jesus. 

One of my favourite things he says is how it would be weird if you squeezed an orange and apple juice came out. Nothing but orange juice should come out of that orange, right?

So when a Christian is squeezed, nothing but Jesus should come out!


I long to write

I long to write. To write about my thoughts and adventures with God.

Sometimes I do not know what to write or how to write it. I have these feelings of joy, excitement, and wonder, all of which I want to express! 

I love what God is doing!!! I love the people He has created. It is an honour to sit with these people. With my family, friends, and even with strangers. Everyone is so unique, but at the same time we all share a unity. We are all human, all creations of God, but He has fashioned every single one to where there is none the same.

I am in awe of Him, what He has done, and what He is doing.


Sensitive Topic: Abortion

I say all of this with only love.

I’m pro-life, which means I am for cultivating and sustaining life. I’m for taking responsibility of our own actions, taking responsibility for life, helping those who need it, who feel like their future is gone because there’s a human growing inside them. It isn’t true that their future is gone. Having a child makes things harder, but not impossible, and it’s a chance to have a great future.

“For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.”
Philippians 4:13 NLT

(In Philippains chapter 4, before verse 13, Paul talked about being content with whatever he had. He told who he was writing to, not to worry about anything, but to pray about everything, tell God what you need and thank Him for it. That we should be thinking on pure, right, and honorable things. It is a great chapter to read and I encourage you to do so.)

Abortion is a heart issue. Abortion is the idea that my future matters more than that tiny human’s future. That God can’t provide. That “I matter more than the human in me.” That “I matter more than the entire generation ahead of me.” The truth is, abortion is rooted entirely in selfishness and fear. And I realize that most women who abort do so because they believe it is the right thing to do. But it still remains a bad action, a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It kills a child, and hurts the mother. Isn’t it like selfishness and fear to cover themselves up and try to appear as love and safety?

But there is something great, and it’s called redemption, forgiveness, repentence, grace, provision, and most of all, love.

If anyone reading this has made the decision to abort for any reason, please be aware God’s forgiveness is for you. It is there to wear like a crown. God can and will touch your heart, and lead you through. He will provide for and protect you. But you have to let Him into the situation, into your heart. Repentence means to have a change of heart and turn back to God. He loves you through it all. And nothing, absolutely nothing can separate you from God’s love. None of this is an excuse to sin, as it says in Romans, but when we have messed up, God is there willing to clean us up and nourish us back to health. He is there willing to lead us in walking out righteous, love-filled lives.

Let love win. Let life win.