I have not blogged in a long time for the simple fact that I forgot about it. Every now and again the idea to blog might pop up, but I would shrug it off thinking I did not have anything worthy of writing about.
I thought about it, and decided to go to my pages to look over what I had previously posted. God showed me–rather, reminded me that I actually have a gift of writing and taking pictures. I share these things on regular social media, but God showed me there is something special about my blogs. They are specific domains set aside to show off these gifts of mine, and in that way, glorify Him.
Because I shrugged my shoulders, saying, “I have nothing worthy of sharing.”, not only did I choose to believe an outright lie, therefore empowering the liar; I withheld glory that God deserves to recieve. Glory that He can only recieve through me using and celebrating these beautiful gifts He has given to me. He gave them to me knowing that only I could express them in my own unique way. How beautiful is that?
I love this process, though, of taking something once thought to be negative (such as equating the celebration of one’s gifts to arrogance) and flipping it over to God’s perspective. To a place where He is speaking only love and life to you. It is certainly a testament to the renewing of my mind. On that note…
I made it to my dream school, Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. The journey so far has been utterly amazing. In fact, I feel as though I may never, ever have the proper vocabulary to express just how intensely amazing and exciting it really is. It is not just about having my dream come true, but also the fact that it is the exact fulfilment of this scripture that I declared over my life for quite some time:
I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower us with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in our hearts as we trust in him. Our roots will grow down into God’s love and keep us strong. And may we have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May we experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then we will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen.
(Emphasis and edits by me.)
I mean, honestly, come on. That is ridiculously awesome.
I have been here since August 28th, registration day was the 30th, a party with my Revival Group on the 31st, and the official first day of school was September 5th.
In the 61 days that I have been here, my life has been completely transformed. There are certain days that I regard as larger markers, such as the 28th, the 30th, the 31st, the 5th, and so on. However, every single day God marks me in a new and unique way. He is always loving me in ways I did not know before. He is always showing me new things (rather, things new to me) about himself and myself. He is also always showing me how to express myself, which is actually the fulfillment of the very first word of encouragement/prophecy I received here. (It was given to me by one of my lovely third years upon meeting him the very first time.)
A few of those things God has been showing me, though, in no particular order…
- The more I love my body, the better I treat it. When I choose to see my body as the beautiful work of art it is, personally formed and fashioned by the King himself, I treat it better by joyfully being active, and enjoying good foods 90% of the time. (The other 10% of the time I am enjoying food that feeds my soul, such as chocolate. Lol.)
- I love people, A LOT. Super duper immensely and intensely. Somehow I always have in mind that each person is so loved by God, that there are people out there who would give anything to have just a second with them, and I feel this intense honour for each induvidual.
- There are people out there who absolutely and genuinely love me. People who would give anything to have just a second with me.
- God loves me absolutely. The God of the universe gave everything, his all, all of himself, all of his eternity, just to have a second with me.
- Vulnerability is different from transparency. I love both, but vulnerability is basically showing your junk and your greatness for people to speak into your life to help and celebrate you. Transparency can be used like a glass wall. You can let others see everything, but not allow anyone in.
- Grace means the world to people. It is vitally important that you extend grace everywhere. Beginning with your own thoughts, “Oh, I do not like it when they tap their foot–wait, grace!–they actually could be nervous or something.” Practicing it in the little things will prepare your heart for the bigger things, such as when someone intentionally tries to hurt you. Your heart will already be in the position to say “Hey, that was not right at all, but you are actually better than that, and I love you and forgive you.” You can see them for who they are in Christ and not get caught on the things that are less than their identity in Jesus. There is a reason we are saved by grace through faith.
I could go on and on and on and on and ooooooonnnnnnnn about all the stuff I have learned here in school. All the stuff God is speaking to me right now, and all the heart surgery he is doing on me. I honestly am beginning to have a slight understanding of how, if everything Jesus did was written down, the whole world could not contain all the books. It is totally possible for the world to contain my entire life and thoughts, but I feel as though I could write about a million blog posts just off these 61 days.
In these 61 days, I have faced an interesting financial situation, of which through family and friends I have been totally supported. I have heard more languages than I can count on one hand. I have slightly settled into my household, enjoying every moment with my roomies, who are basically my sisters now. I have connected with my amazing Revival Groupies, whom I love dearly, and are family to me. I have worshipped harder than I thought I ever could, danced freer than I ever knew was possible, loved more than I ever have in my entire lifetime, hiked a freakin’ mountain, and gone so much deeper with God. I have seen, and heard, and experienced so much. I will have testimonies for the generations.
Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him!
Psalms 34:8 NLT